I wasn’t supposed to get pregnant, that’s what the doctors said. But my God had a different plan. Does He do that to you sometimes? I had a beautiful baby boy from Yeshua/Jesus. I was so blessed and loved. He is older now and loves the Lord. I will never forget when my son asked me to help him move from our house to his bio dad’s. Can you believe it, he didn’t want to live with my husband and me any longer. Ok, he was getting older and needed to move out. But it was so hard to move him to the man who abused him and me for years. It broke my heart, but I wanted to help my son. He was 22 years old then. I know it was time. We had been through so much over the years. I wanted him to be a roommate with someone or live on his own. He just couldn’t afford to. So, he chose to be a roommate with his bio dad.
I have lost two babies in my life so far. I thought I would have another, but God had a different story to tell. When I was pregnant with my son, I was extremely sick every day. I eventually couldn’t work anymore. I had stomach acid coming up in my mouth and I had to spit it out every few minutes in a towel. It burned my gums and made them reseed some. I didn’t know it tell I went to the dentist after months of having my son. I did recover, thank Yeshua for that. I wasn’t an average pregnant women. I actually lost so much weight while being pregnant. People could see my bones sticking out of my chest. I was only eighty pounds when I had my son.
I had a midwife to help me at first but then later after I was so sick, the midwife didn’t or couldn’t help me any longer. So, I had to go to a regular M.D. at a clinic. I had a friend take me many times to my midwife, she gave up on me though. When I went to the doctor at the clinic, he didn’t know what to do for me. He said “Carmen, I can’t help you much, the midwife and the doctor she worked under gave you too many drugs. I know they were trying to stop you from vomiting so much. But It really messed you up, now you can’t sleep”. He said, “I wish I could give you something to help you, but I think you need to wean off all of those drugs they gave you, first”. I cried in the doctor’s office, and I said, “Doc how can I do that?” I found out years later that those drugs they gave me were experimental. How crazy uh? I did pray a lot, and I had God’s word on my belly reading it every moment of the day. I remember reading Job. While I was weaning off of all those drugs my body started to have huge hives all over me. My immune system was attacked. I’ll never forget all of the pain and agony. All I wanted is to have my baby boy asap.
When I went into my last appointment the doc said “Carmen, your water won’t break you have been leaking, you need to go straight to the hospital. Of course I didn’t, I guess in a way I didn’t know if I would ever get to see my baby. It was such a long pregnancy. It just felt that way. My husband at the time finally got home and we ate dinner. Then I started to have contractions bad. I said “Ok I think it’s time, let’s go. So, we jumped, well I didn’t do that, I rolled into the 1969 Chevy pickup truck. We bounced along for miles. Ok, I forgot to tell you we lived way in the woods, miles away from a hospital. Anyways, we did make it to the hospital. My husband at the time was so nervous that he dropped me off two blocks to the hospital because he couldn’t find a parking spot. Funny uh?
I was in so much pain I thought I would fall apart. My husband finally found a parking spot and came rushing towards me and practically carried me into an emergency. You would never guess what the lady at the front desk said to me, well maybe you would. She asked what I was in for. I looked at her and said, “Lady you can’t see that I’m pregnant?” Then the lady said, “Would you like to take the elevator or the stairs?” As I was doing my breathing techniques, I looked at her with a look I guess my husband told me that I looked at her like I would kill her. I don’t remember that all I remember is that I told her ok I’ll take the stairs. With a sarcastic voice of course. I did make it to the hospital room I was to go in and get that baby from God out of me. Well, I thought so, but of course not so easily. I pushed for twelve and a half hours. My doctor from the clinic came in the door smiling at me. I don’t remember saying this, but my mom and my sister-in-law said that I told the doctor to please excuse my hair legs and my stinky feet. He said “Oh, that’s no problem sweetheart.”
After those hours of pushing the doctor called for an epidural. I waited for the nurse to put the needle in my spine, I was so nervous. Then after a few more hours. My doctor called for emergency c-section and another epidural. That’s when I was big time nervous. I didn’t understand what was going on. My doctor said that my pelvis was way too narrow for my baby to come out, that’s why I had to do the emergency c-section. I prayed that my baby boy and I would be ok. It did seem like my doc was a little nervous too, it was taking a long time. Since I was so dilated.
I finally had my baby boy. Praise Yeshua/Jesus! I’m a blessed mama. I found out I couldn’t hold my baby; my body was all paralyzed mostly on my left side. My face drooped on my left side. I was scared. So, I couldn’t breast feed my baby. For the next three and half months I couldn’t walk without a crutch. I had to drop my baby’s crib to the lowest position so I could roll him in my right arm to feed him. I actually don’t remember how I warmed his milk. My husband at the time he helped out for one week and then my mom helped out for one week. I guess by that time I should not be paralyzed anymore, right? Well, I was still, I thank God for my girl friend that dragged me to a chiropractor. This chiropractor adjusted my back and worked on my nerves in my back too. And after three and half months I was able to carry my baby boy and walk again. But mostly be able to work in the salon again, with my arms and hands working. Praise my Savior!
Now my son moved out of his bio dad’s house and moved to Texas. He meets a beautiful young lady, and my son falls in love. I’m so proud of what he is becoming in Yeshua/Jesus. I’m so glad I got to have such a sweet son that loves his mama. He has a kind and caring spirit. I’m a blessed mom. I thank Yeshua for blessing me with such a special gift. Now I can watch from a far how much my son is becoming a man after God’s own heart.
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