ALONE

Here I am again in my house feeling alone and actually physically alone. I have talked to a few friends and that helped. Everyone is so busy this summer with their friends and families. I do think that’s wonderful. I want to go out on a boat or in my kayak, and I could but the heat gets to me. Most people just don’t understand and really just don’t care.

My friends who are single they think being married you wouldn’t feel alone but that’s just not true. Yes, to have a husband that can fix cars sometimes and some other things around the house. I know how to fix things around the house. Just not the roof and not the cars. But I can save up and hire someone to fix things around here. My Yeshua/Jesus wants me to not go over my husband’s head. So, I won’t because I want to be obedient to my Savior. There are days when I’d like to just get things done. And not halfway and never get back to it, whatever it is to fix. It bugs me when things rarely ever get finished around here. And tools lay around for months and even years sometimes.

I know I’m complaining. About being alone and feeling alone. Is something I’ve dealt with my whole life. I know I’m not alone I have Yeshua/Jesus, right? I’m a woman that needs attention by my husband sometimes and to go out and play sometimes. Well, more than every few years. If even that. Do you know what I mean ladies? Don’t get me wrong I do go do things for just me every once in a while.

So, the life of aloneness is just part of living here on this earth. Only unless you can reach out to Yeshua/Jesus. Worship Him with your life and the deep loneliness you feel. Yeshua will be there, remember He promised He would never leave you alone. Even if you feel it right now, it’s not true. The truth is Yeshua is right next to you smiling and saying my daughter I love you with an everlasting kind of love, agape love. He will love us forever and ever.