LIFE WITHOUT MY SON

I just got back from the ocean/my writer’s retreat. I got back on the 8th of December. I’ve been thinking differently but in a state of realizing I want to write my books, write my podcasts, write my newsletters and enjoy it. I want to start doing more artwork and play my violin. I’m still trying to figure out how to balance it all.

I miss my son, but he seems not to be missing me anymore. He’s very busy with his knew life. Now I don’t want to bug him. So, I’m feeling a little uneasy with my days. I know I can get through every day with Yeshua/Jesus. He keeps me thinking on Him more that on everyone and everything else. Some days I still cry that I can’t see and give my son a hug. Like I said before I can and will get through this.

What I’m trying to do is enjoy my animals and my hubby more. But not to the point where they all consume me. I catch myself care taking codependently. Yeshua has been helping me with my need to be needed too much. So, I put up my healthy boundaries on me. Then I can write and do art relaxed. With no burdens on me. I give my sadness and any hurts/pain to my Lord. I’ve noticed Yeshua gives me comfort and peace. Gosh! I think I’m starting to understand contentment. I asked for that years ago. It could be I’m finally maturing the correct way in Christ. Maybe?! I know Christ is teaching me more and more every day.

Thanks for reading my blog. I pray for all of you and trust Yeshua is blessing you in your life. My son is doing well, thank you for your prayers for him and his family. Many blessings to you all!