MY MEN-O-PAUSE LIFE

I wanted to talk about my life these days. It’s been a challenge to survive being a wife, mother, friend and daughter warrior to the King of all Kings. Yeshua/Jesus has been there for me through crazy days. I’ve been dazed and confused most days. I will hold on to Yeshua through it all. He’s my Rock and Salvation.

I’ve been having some outbursts of anxiety.” Do you ever feel this way?” I really hope I’m not the only one out here like that. My husband upsets me on how he speaks not just what he says to me. I have been learning what to say, now I say, “I felt hurt on what and how you said that to me!” I’m starting to speak out, my feeling out loud. With Yeshua’s help and guidance. He’s getting me to feel my feelings and not just stuff them like I used to for years. My mother told me what to say and how to think. My ex’s and current husband would tell me how I thought and what I meant by what I had said. Like my feelings didn’t matter.

Yeshua tells me to speak my feelings out loud, but not harshly. Well, I don’t always do that great. Our marriage counselor tells me to trust my husband. It’s a process. “Isn’t it?” My husband has a tendency to dismiss my feelings and tell me that he’s done talking, so that means I have to stop talking right now. What if I’m not done talking? this doesn’t happen as much as it used to. With the counselor’s help we’re doing better.

I’m feeling more in control of my life, my feelings, my talents, my thoughts and my world. I give it all to my Lord and Savior, Yeshua. I’ve been casting all of my cares on to Him and it really is helping. He’s doing a work in my mind/soul. The transforming of the mind is changing me into a woman I actually like. With my men-o-pause it’s been an experience. I say men-o-pause because I have been putting and keeping healthy boundaries and limits on myself more often these days. I do feel good about myself too. Do you understand what I’m saying? I pray for every warrior woman going through this menopause will realize it’s not a curse, its power in Yeshua. And trusting Him for each day to get you through. Praise Yeshua/Jesus!