Let me start out with me with the dogs I had when I was a teenager. I lived with my aunt and uncle. They had a dog named Puppy original uh. He was a Weiner dog. I loved him so much. He was fun. He could have played for hours, chasing that ball. I describe him as adventurous. Then my auntie rescued a dog named Essa. She was abused from a Russian family. It was so sad. Essa I could describe her as a loving and caring dog. I spent a lot of my time after school with her, talking to her and snuggling. Then I moved out. Years later I got married and when we bought our house, we also adopted a Rottweiler / lab mix, from the animal shelter. WOW! He became my security dog and my very bestie friends. I named him Frank and sometimes Frankie. I trained him every day and night after work. We went to the beach, and I trained him there. He liked the water and to roll around in the beach sand. Later on, we adopted a dog from my girlfriend. To describe Jesse well, she was a mix for sure. She had Rottweiler, king Shepard and Akida. She was fun but very hyper.

I wanted to talk about my life these days. It’s been a challenge to survive being a wife, mother, friend and daughter warrior to the King of all Kings. Yeshua/Jesus has been there for me through crazy days. I’ve been dazed and confused most days. I will hold on to Yeshua through it all. He’s my Rock and Salvation.

I’ve been having some outbursts of anxiety.” Do you ever feel this way?” I really hope I’m not the only one out here like that. My husband upsets me on how he speaks not just what he says to me. I have been learning what to say, now I say, “I felt hurt on what and how you said that to me!” I’m starting to speak out, my feeling out loud. With Yeshua’s help and guidance. He’s getting me to feel my feelings and not just stuff them like I used to for years. My mother told me what to say and how to think. My ex’s and current husband would tell me how I thought and what I meant by what I had said. Like my feelings didn’t matter.

Yeshua tells me to speak my feelings out loud, but not harshly. Well, I don’t always do that great. Our marriage counselor tells me to trust my husband. It’s a process. “Isn’t it?” My husband has a tendency to dismiss my feelings and tell me that he’s done talking, so that means I have to stop talking right now. What if I’m not done talking? this doesn’t happen as much as it used to. With the counselor’s help we’re doing better.

I’m feeling more in control of my life, my feelings, my talents, my thoughts and my world. I give it all to my Lord and Savior, Yeshua. I’ve been casting all of my cares on to Him and it really is helping. He’s doing a work in my mind/soul. The transforming of the mind is changing me into a woman I actually like. With my men-o-pause it’s been an experience. I say men-o-pause because I have been putting and keeping healthy boundaries and limits on myself more often these days. I do feel good about myself too. Do you understand what I’m saying? I pray for every warrior woman going through this menopause will realize it’s not a curse, its power in Yeshua. And trusting Him for each day to get you through. Praise Yeshua/Jesus!