I have decided to write about our mothers who raised us. Some of us didn’t have mothers, some of us had our dads who raised us or someone in the family. Some of us had lost our mother at a young age. All mothers influence us when were young and when we become adults. I am reading a book about our mothers and about ourselves. By Henry Cloud and John Townsend. They are great authors; they have written the books on boundaries and so many other books. All of them are great. We don’t normally come out of our mother’s womb and know about boundaries and how influential our mothers will be in our lives.

I do believe our mothers have probably had a hard life when they grew up. They tried to teach us what they learned from their mothers. Unfortunately, a lot of mothers through the generations didn’t always learn from the Bible and Yeshua, how to raise their children. I am so sorry for that. And I do understand what you might have gone through as a child.

My mother had a lot of hang ups from her mother. Her mother didn’t have a good mother either. So, she just raised my mother like she was taught with violence and screaming over the years. There are generational curses that follow us too. So, we ask Yeshua/ Jesus to heal that part and take it from us. So, we can heal and walk with and in Him. Praise Yeshua!

My mother cursed me and taught me that it was not ok to be me, ever. She treated me with distain. I now understand that probably came from generational curses. But now I have changed this to Yeshua’s blessings on me and on my son. I do believe my son will carry the blessings to his children through Yeshua. And I do Praise Yeshua for this one every day of my life. Yeshua has taught me that I’m more than good enough in His eyes and that I’m His daughter warrior, He will love and cherish forever. He has saved me through all of that violence and pain from my past. Although I have to say I’m still recovering and I’m trusting Him more and more in my life. Do you feel this sometimes too?

I would like to tell you that our vacation to the ocean was great. Well, It was we talked and hung out for two full days. It was fun! I enjoyed the ocean and the beaches. We went to Copalis beach close to Ocean Shores. But then later on we decided to go to MO Clips. The beach there is way more interesting well to us anyways. To some people like to just sit in their cars and watch the ocean waves. We like to do that too especially when it’s so cold out.

We like to go to MO clips beach because of all of the shells and sand dollars we find there. We like to chase the waves. The power of the ocean floor is relaxing and compelling. Is it for you too? We get refreshed and impowered to think clearer. It brings us closer to Yeshua in a way. We walked for hours the beaches for two days. I do believe it was good for us to enjoy ourselves.

I wanted to let you know of MO clips if you don’t know of it yet. It’s on the other side of Ocean Shores. Where everyone goes in the summer. We’re introverts so, we don’t like to hang out with everyone. Oh, sometimes but mostly not. Our friends and we consider family own Gull Wing Inn. They only have three cabins, but they have a great place to stay.

i live for Yeshua, He gives me more inspirations and outlooks of life. Be Blessed in Yeshua/Jesus always and forever. Going to the beaches next to the ocean is healing to my soul and mind.

Good morning, I wanted to talk about my ocean trip coming up. My hubby and I decided to make reservations to go hang out for a few days at the ocean. I think it will be relaxing. Well, I hope so. We go and collect seashells and sand dollars. It’s a lot of fun chasing the waves to catch the sand dollars before the seagulls get them. I pray we’ll have time to talk and maybe play games. Our son will be taking care of all of our animals and house. He’s a sweetie.

This trip is part of our wedding anniversary gift to us. We will bring our rain gear and boots, so we don’t get too wet playing in the water. Our dogs will be at home. I’m sure they would love to come too. But we decided to not bring them this time. Maybe we won’t be interrupted so much.

In the first part of March, I decided to take another trip for me. A writers retreat away yes; I will bring one of my dogs. I will be at the ocean for a full week. This is my first time going off by myself. It will be relaxing, and I really need it. To start thinking on my book on my testimonies. And to start on other writings too. Such as, on bible studies, more devotionals and more podcasts. I really need me time. It’s a foreign concept for me. Is it for you too? I need time away with Yeshua mostly. I do take that time and I’m so blessed to have that time. I didn’t used to, I worked so much, and I served so much. I forgot about me; I didn’t think I mattered but I do. And you do too!

I’ve been learning with Yeshua’s grace and mercy. He’s been teaching me that I matter and that I need to keep up my boundaries on myself more than anything else. So, I am doing that. My hubby is starting to respect me more these days. I have noticed. I have noticed I can give him more of my love because of my boundaries on myself. It’s interesting how that works. I know I have read about this for years, but it really does work. Can you imagine yourself to do it too? I do hope you could give it a try. May Yeshua/Jesus Bless you indeed!

Let me start out with me with the dogs I had when I was a teenager. I lived with my aunt and uncle. They had a dog named Puppy original uh. He was a Weiner dog. I loved him so much. He was fun. He could have played for hours, chasing that ball. I describe him as adventurous. Then my auntie rescued a dog named Essa. She was abused from a Russian family. It was so sad. Essa I could describe her as a loving and caring dog. I spent a lot of my time after school with her, talking to her and snuggling. Then I moved out. Years later I got married and when we bought our house, we also adopted a Rottweiler / lab mix, from the animal shelter. WOW! He became my security dog and my very bestie friends. I named him Frank and sometimes Frankie. I trained him every day and night after work. We went to the beach, and I trained him there. He liked the water and to roll around in the beach sand. Later on, we adopted a dog from my girlfriend. To describe Jesse well, she was a mix for sure. She had Rottweiler, king Shepard and Akida. She was fun but very hyper.

I wanted to talk about my life these days. It’s been a challenge to survive being a wife, mother, friend and daughter warrior to the King of all Kings. Yeshua/Jesus has been there for me through crazy days. I’ve been dazed and confused most days. I will hold on to Yeshua through it all. He’s my Rock and Salvation.

I’ve been having some outbursts of anxiety.” Do you ever feel this way?” I really hope I’m not the only one out here like that. My husband upsets me on how he speaks not just what he says to me. I have been learning what to say, now I say, “I felt hurt on what and how you said that to me!” I’m starting to speak out, my feeling out loud. With Yeshua’s help and guidance. He’s getting me to feel my feelings and not just stuff them like I used to for years. My mother told me what to say and how to think. My ex’s and current husband would tell me how I thought and what I meant by what I had said. Like my feelings didn’t matter.

Yeshua tells me to speak my feelings out loud, but not harshly. Well, I don’t always do that great. Our marriage counselor tells me to trust my husband. It’s a process. “Isn’t it?” My husband has a tendency to dismiss my feelings and tell me that he’s done talking, so that means I have to stop talking right now. What if I’m not done talking? this doesn’t happen as much as it used to. With the counselor’s help we’re doing better.

I’m feeling more in control of my life, my feelings, my talents, my thoughts and my world. I give it all to my Lord and Savior, Yeshua. I’ve been casting all of my cares on to Him and it really is helping. He’s doing a work in my mind/soul. The transforming of the mind is changing me into a woman I actually like. With my men-o-pause it’s been an experience. I say men-o-pause because I have been putting and keeping healthy boundaries and limits on myself more often these days. I do feel good about myself too. Do you understand what I’m saying? I pray for every warrior woman going through this menopause will realize it’s not a curse, its power in Yeshua. And trusting Him for each day to get you through. Praise Yeshua/Jesus!